Last night I was sitting at the table staring at the Hanukkah candles, eating chocolate poker chips, when I realized that my whole family wasn't together.
I felt like crying.
The only reason last year was okay was because my dad was there, I could forget that my family was breaking up. That has always been a fear of mine; people abandoning me. When my uncle left in the middle of the night I cried myself to sleep, the next morning I pretended that i was fine, that I didn't care. I kinda hate him.
But I digress, my point is that this Hanukkah sucks, the fist night at least and I wish every one was all in one place to celebrate it.(My mom, aunt and grandmother wouldn't let me take pictures of everyone with the candles...you guys know how much I love taking photos!!)
I got to my dads house today and he made my day; he got me a squeal worthy stuffed fox! And a Hershie bar. She/hes' called Slick.
Anyway, I really hope we can all meet up for Hanukkah.I found a cute tutorial on how to turn one sock into a teddy bear...My first one looks like a purple alien from outer space...hahaha
I've been stressing out about the exams I have to redo trying to decide whether I really care if I pass them or not. I asked my uncles' wife whether you will receive a Teudat Bagrute if you failed any subjects or do you have to pass them all, she said it depends on what subjects you failed. She didn't receive hers because she failed History....and something else.
So I decided to take Ezrachute, because I never took it,J History, Math and חינוך ומשפחה.
...And I just saw a video of a baby goat standing up for the fist time wagging its tail like a happy puppy!! *Squeal*
By the way last year my grandmother wanted to take me to this place outside of Jerusalem that was a hotel but you could camp outside and stargaze, they had a telescope too. I really want us all to go...Anyone interested maybe when Juliet has another vacation...yes?
Oh, me and my dad plan on getting bikes this month maybe the next! Well my dad is getting an electric bike and I'm getting a normal one...I hope. Anyway so Roni if you ever want we could go and ride, anyone else is welcome to too. My aunt is a meanie, she has been trying to get me to ride her bike for a year now but its too tall, but the minute I decide to get one for me she decides that its too expensive, it will get stolen, I have nowhere to put it. If all she is going to do is throw negativity at me then she should keep her trap shut!
I have been watching Big Bang Theory from the beginning since two weeks ago and at the moment I'm on season 3 episode 21, can't stop laughing!
I need to buy stuffing tomorrow for the sock bears I'm making...
Anyway, my dad is making me leave the computer so goodnight y'all,
Hope you are all doing well
Taz
I'm sorry your Hanukkah is off to a bad start, but hopefully it will get better. Maybe you guys can save a sufgania for me? You have to send a pic of the sock-bear, it sounds hilarious! And the hotel sounds cool, maybe we can go during my time off this summer, since I'll be in Israel for about 3 months. :)
ReplyDeleteI wish i was there to hug you tweezers. Chanuka isn't the same without family i know from last year but luckily we have 8 days so you still have time for the best chanuka night yet. Someday in the future we will all be together for Chanuka stuffing our faces with sufganiot and probably petting some animal depending on whose house we're at.
ReplyDeleteIm sorry your were sad on the first day of Hanukkah. I also have a fear of abandonment (although its weaker then it used to be, it took me until I was 13 to become ok with the possibility of being home alone, even just for a few hours...) thats a story for another time. For now lets focus on you and happier things, like how we would never abandon you and if you ever feel alone feel free to call me or come over (my family would be happy to adopt you). The hotel thing sounds awesome, I would love to do it. and the alien bear sounds awesome as well. cant wait to get together.
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DeleteThanks for understanding Arielle, I laughed when you said you'd adopt me, I love you!!
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